I clicked on to Blogger this morning and saw that I now have 50 followers. I'm excited to have that many people wanting to read what I have to say. But, on the flip side, I know the reason I've gotten new readers it because everyone seems to like to watch a train wreck. :)
I don't say that to be mean. Honest - I'm glad I've got so many people reading. I hope that even though so many of my posts have been negative that everyone can see my passion for foster kids. I hope that maybe a few of my posts have helped someone else.
I know that my current journey is discouraging some people from fostering. My next door neighbor grew up in foster care and had fostered before. She and I talked over a year ago and she decided that her family would go through the licensing process again and start helping more children. But as things drug on and on with Dude and Dolly she and her husband backed out. I've seen a few other blogging friends say they were going to take a break right now and make reference to our story.
This stuff I'm going through is scary as Hell!!!
I'm incredibly grateful for the support I've received though! Thank you to all my readers that comment on my posts. Knowing I have people praying for me all over the world gives me great comfort. God has blessed me. On days when I'm struggling with the intensity of the investigation, I've received random emails of support. Sure, comments are great. I welcome them! I love them! But to get the personal attention of an email from total strangers?! Wow! They surprised me and strengthened me so much.
Yesterday I had a blogger friend message me via Facebook. We exchanged phone numbers and we talked. I was on the phone with someone I've never "met" for nearly an hour (before I had to dash away for a family event). It felt like I was talking with an old friend. She wanted to make sure I had ALL my ducks in a row. (ie: have I thought about what lawyer I would hire should this investigation end poorly) Someone I've never met wanted to make sure I stay safe through all this crazy. Thank you Mama Foster!!
God is nudging my IRL friends to support me as well. I've been receiving text messages just "checking in" quite frequently. FB messages are more common now than ever before as well.
I thank you ALL for the support. As alone as I tend to feel when I'm having a bad day, I know that I am anything but alone. God has placed a community around me and I'm very grateful for it.
So, welcome to my new readers. Thanks to all of you that stop by. Many, many thanks to all of you that are praying for my family. I hope my story doesn't prevent people from continuing to care for the children that so desperately need us. I will continue to be open and honest about everything though. If nothing else,,,,to open the eyes of anyone in The System that can make a difference. To those of you that are fostering or supporting a foster family in any way, stay safe and stay strong. God bless you!!