In order to help deal with the unnecessary anxiety this intervention has put on me, I have implemented some strategies.
Man technology is awesome!
I set up a bunch of calendar events on my phone. Now, several times a day I will be reminded that the worst thing that could happen is Dude & Dolly end up in Dallas. Yes, that would totally suck. And yes, I would grieve!! But like Mama Foster said in response to my last post, it's already the plan and has been for two years now. I have to keep this all in perspective!
I also made an event to remind me that I am free. This is all my choice and if it got horrible, I can walk away. (I won't. But I have the freedom to.) Reminding myself that this is a choice helps me keep things in perspective...especially since I then remember that the worst case scenario is that Dude and Dolly will leave. (Again – that would be perfectly awful. But I know my core family would survive.)
I even went out and bought the Newsboys song "I Am Free". I set an alarm to go off on my phone once a day that will play the song.
The last event I added to my calendar reminds to to stop and take a deep breath. When I exhale I will blow out all the anxiety and worry.
It's not like I'm living in a constant state of fear and anxiety. But it's not like I'm living a totally "normal" life either. Anything I can do to help cut down on the stress is helpful. Thank you all for your support!!