I realize my posts are all over the place right now. I've got more to write about the hospital stay, family visits and court for Ricky.
But right now I need prayers.
(I know. I'm so damn needy. Always asking for prayers.)
I JUST got notice (literally...15 minutes ago) that I have to bring Daisy to a Family Group Conference meeting at CPS on Friday at 3:00PM. It's not an optional event. I have to come and I have to bring the baby.
Both bio parents are to be in attendance as well.
AND I HAVE TO BRING THE BABY!
It's not like the baby can tell the committee about her experiences in foster care. It's not like she can weigh in on her goals or tell anyone what she wants.
And BOTH bio parents are going to be there.
My emotional tank isn't full enough for this kind of contact. I'm still trying to recover from eight days in the hospital and two brain surgeries.
Please pray for us.
CPS assures me that I will get to hold the baby and care for her during the entire meeting. I'm not sure how much I trust that. I've had to bring children before and when I did, those children were always with the parents at the meeting.
I honestly do not want to have to talk to the bio dad at all.
God help me if I have to talk to that man while I hold the baby in my arms that he nearly killed.